Move Up or Move On.
Somehow, some way, it’s already March. The bitterest months of winter are behind us and we are all craning our necks for a closer glimpse of spring. It occurred to me over the weekend that this was a great time for me to take a minute to evaluate where I’m at and what I’m doing- and how I feel about all of it. I had made some commitments to myself at the beginning of this year- not resolutions exactly, but things I want to be working toward. So how were they going?
Places where I feel good about my commitments:
*Auditioning, singing, a regular yoga practice. Getting to tap class. Sticking to a budget. All going well. Yay for me!
But there was this other column too: the list of places where I feel less good about my commitments:
And just one item was there in big block letters.
In what may be the most self-referential post ever, this post is about- this post. I have known for a while that having 42 friends on Facebook wasn’t going to cut it if I wanted to really connect with people. And having some brief experience in the advertising world, I also have known that creating a blog isn’t ONLY about content. However, content is top priority, so I had purposely pushed off the “marketing” aspect of the blog in order to focus on generating content.
Well, that hasn’t exactly happened in the last two months. I have about 47 reasons why, and 39 of them are really pretty valid. But in the end, the excuses don’t matter to me, and they certainly don’t matter to anyone else. I had made a commitment to this enterprise, entirely of my own volition, and now my lack of follow-through was giving me some serious guilt.
So I had a meeting with my good friend Sara, who is a social media wiz, and she called me to task. Forced me to take a look at what I really want out of this endeavor. And I realized that I had a choice. I could rededicate myself to this commitment, or I could choose to let it go. And in the course of talking about what I wanted this blog to be, I realized how much I believe in it. How much I believe in what it could be. And I cried. So then I had my anwer.
So this is my rededication to Edge of the Mat, to my readers, and to myself in saying what it is I have to say. In believing that I have the ability to connect with other people because of the words on the screen. I’m sure I haven’t stumbled for the last time, but I will do the best I can. And I think that I will be able to give more moving forward.